Friday, October 29, 2010

Highs and Lows

For every action there is an equal and opposite reaction. So, for as good as I was feeling about work last week, this week has been a 180. Nothing too specific, just a reminder that I’m human, and that’s…OK. Or not.

Today is Halloween at the office – rather tellingly, I’ve come dressed as an “Unhappy Camper”. Cargo shorts. Ripped, bloodied dirty t shirt. Makeup that looks like I’ve had the shit beat out of me. I love it.

Tomorrow, we have a party in my husband’s hometown, and that’s going to be fun as well. Different costume, which I am unable to disclose at this time. Pictures certainly to follow.

What else can I tell you? Last night was the finale of Project Runway, and it made me ANGRY. The clear winner was a wonderful designer whose joy was evident. His name was Mondo. Instead, they gave it to Gretchen. An Uber-Bitch with no talent, baggy, ugly clothes and a case of narcissism that made me want to vomit.

I hate TV.

And I also love it.

As I was telling my friend Rosie last night, I’m out-of-sorts.

Whatever that means.

Sigh.

Well – we’re about to get out of this month, and with a new month, maybe we’ll get a clean slate…

Sigh.

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Hippo Birdies...

Well, today is my 36th birthday. You know what sucks? Having to come into the office on your birthday. Due to the advanced technology of Facebook, several people here actually know it’s my birthday. So I don’t have the anonymity of going underground. But at the same time, my Mom isn’t bringing in cupcakes to share with my classmates.

Blech.

The actual aging process doesn’t bother me. Especially because 36 is my favorite number. So that’s no big thing.

But it would be great to not be here – to be getting a pedicure or a haircut or buying a new outfit. Or having lunch with a friend, or taking a nap, or taking a walk with Lola.

Sometimes, I just want a little more glamour and a little less laundry.

That said, I did have a great weekend with my family – my nephew Henry is really sweet, lots of fun – I miss him already –but that’s not to say I couldn’t use a long, long nap from the festivities. I had some of my friends from work over Saturday to have dinner with the family, and it went well. I think everyone had fun – because as one of my friends said, otherwise he’d have left a lot sooner. Cryptic statements like that make me doubt my sanity, to say nothing of my ability to cook a decent meal.

Still, great food, great friends and great family. It doesn’t get much better.

Work is good. Actually, I had a really affirming time last week – we had customers in for the User Conference, and they were nice, funny and pleasant to be around. Except for one woman who pitched a bitch in one of our training sessions. She was hell on wheels. Charming. Everyone hated her by the end of the week.

Ahhh, I can’t complain, but sometimes, I still do.

ae

Monday, October 11, 2010

Literature, Fashion and so on, ad infinitum...

Nothing to see here.

How did one third of the month slip by and I have so little to show for it?

I haven’t joined WW yet for the simple reason that I decided to hold off til after the family’s visit. Since it’s going to be so heavily food-oriented, I didn’t want to set myself up for failure.

The house is starting to come together. Of course, having a toddler in the house is a sure way to know that your house is never quite prepared enough. I’m sure Tom and Laura have nightmares about our set-up.

I’ve done a lot of reading, recently. Natae lent me The Art of Racing in the Rain by Garth Stein. Awesome – told from the point of view of a terrier/lab mix on the eve of his being euthanized. She also lent me David Sedaris’ When You Are Engulfed in Flames. And I do love his writing. I bought one for the Kindle on my last trip called Looking for Salvation at the Dairy Queen, by Susan Gregg Gilmore – that I really liked because it took place in Ringgold, GA and had bits about Chattanooga and Atlanta that I recognized. I wrote her an e mail after I finished it. She wrote back. She lives in Chattanooga, but just moved there from Nashville. I hope I’ll meet her some day. Natae gave me two other books that I haven’t even glanced at, plus my friend Rosie gave me one that’s sitting in my trunk. It’s an enviable problem to have.

Work is mostly good – some changes are working themselves out, and some are good, some are frustrating. It is definitely a white man’s world, and I only meet 50% of that description.

Lola seems to be doing far better than she was a month ago. She’s gained a few pounds and looks less gaunt and altogether healthier and better. I do love that dog. She’s the best. Her favorite cousins in Alaska sent her a present. A new fashionable e-collar - it's black and white gingham on the outside, white and black stripes on the inside. I think she looks lovely.

Let’s not wait so long before we talk next.

ae